When I stopped being judgemental…

It didn’t take me more than 2 meetings to say ‘no way’.

I have met him more than twice and I realized I didn’t have to say that. Some people u meet by accident is no accident. I have hidden more than he has shared. I have always been unsure of him around. I shut the door before I even realized. And most often when I think I need to talk, he would call out of the blue. When I felt I needed advice, I just needed to turn around. I closed my eyes, and he would say to me – u have it in you.

Yea, something was wrong. I obviously was pre-occupied and he was thinking way too much abt me. But he grew on me. I wanted to share the smallest, the silliest. He heard me out. I never understood why he was excited, why he said a few things and repeated it… I called him Popat! I used him as my sounding board. I didn’t realize I was using him….he was around.

There were moments when I was happy and in bliss with my surrounding, but a thought would cross me, reminding me of him. I did something new and I wanted to tell..talk..yak. Who knew id known him for over a year. Time flew.

Neither of us expected anything from each other. I made my side clear. Obviously I didn’t want THINGS to happen.

This guilt of not letting him know why I wasn’t IN for anything and what was I pre-occupied with kills me.

He has no attitude, he is plain simple. No quirkiness. Not MY types for sure... but I only say this after over a year :)