leading a secret life…

…and believing that is my world! There are times when I am not aware of why I took a certain decision, but I thought it was logical. And at that moment it was my gut feeling and I went by it. Never regretted any thing this far.

I do things that I never wanted to, but my inner self has a reason. The 2 angels talk aloud. The good says ‘what do you loose?’ the evil says ‘you are mad!’. They play a role, but it is ME who has to take a call. When I look around I wonder if everybody goes through this chaos in the head.

To the outer world, we are all individuals who have everything well organized, no chaos and no doubts. But that’s not true. My head is a muddle. I don’t accept people lying, I hate it when they don’t appreciate what deserves a thought, I can’t do things for a reason, I hate people who don’t believe in themselves, I cant stand it when you are not given your well worth and I don’t understand why do you need examples of others to take a decision for you.

Why do we want to be like someone else? Why don’t we have the courage to say what we feel, to do what we like, and be with whom we want? Why are there egos?

Don’t all of us want to be accepted, valued, appreciated, recognized? Don’t all of us have special people around who we think of more often than we think they do?! Don’t we all have one person who is allowed to critic? Don’t we remember the thrill of seeing someone unexpected, the happiness in doing nothing? Why cant we just tell people what we feel?

If you just said ‘NO’, you are living a secret life!

I am tired of answering these voices. Why cant my secret life be THE ONE I am living?